When you learn to write, one of the major pieces is writing an introduction. You could say quite a bit about the formal process and the way formal writing is typically structured.That being said, I m not your typical writer. I didn t exactly plan to be in this spot, and honestly, it s just a hobby of mine. If you enjoy reading my posts, great. I appreciate it.My entire point, from the very beginning of this week, has been to bootstrap my own platform, on my own two feet. As you all know, rumors were going around, and I felt as if I wasn t in that great of a position to go out and say everything that I ve said, in one long post. I ve needed to break it apart, and work through some of my own notes again. Prove myself, rather than asking for it to be handed to me. Keep people guessing on some elements, to let the people who have been doing wrong firmly prove themselves. At least twelve people at this point have sent me undeniable proof. I don t want to do anything with it. I want to move on, and I want to write about technology, and other things I actually enjoy writing about.I really don t enjoy conflict, or writing about it, at all. I just know how to defend myself if I need to. If you think I actively want to make everyone mad for no good reason, you re honestly fooling yourself.I already know that I m not going to agree with everything I write in a few years, or maybe even weeks. But I ll hold myself to the same standard I hold everyone else. If you say something and a few years pass, I m not going to assume you still have the same opinion. I ll give you the opportunity to correct it. I d ask you lend me the same courtesy.I do this because I enjoy it, not out of anger, sadness, or anything like that. A number of people have approached me now simply asking why I m doing what I m doing. I planned to write this blog post at the very end all along. I just haven t revealed the plans before publishing. [I wrote the outline for this more than a day ago.]My entire point here is to give the common person a voice. I know exactly what it s like to start from nothing, and work your way up to a comfortable spot. I didn t only do it once, I did it twice. This is my third time. I genuinely don t appreciate it when people silence other people s voices just because they don t like them. I wasn t raised that way, and that s not how I run my own projects. In fact, I d say that if you silence opinions or values that don t exactly match yours, you re missing out on the variety of life.You can lead a horse to water, but you can t make them drink. If you still think there are issues on my end, you re being misinformed. Plain and simple. I m not going to spend any more time on it, I actually want to start what I ve always wanted to do for years, just never had the opportunity to.This is my last post for the week. I feel like I ve bootstrapped enough where next week I can focus on another topic, as originally planned.Thanks for reading. I appreciate your support. Talk to you on Monday. If you have topic suggestions, feel free to leave them in the comments. Feel free to leave your hate mail too, so I know where I m at.If you read Piaget, you know that silence is concerning with respect to socialization. I just took a look at the view count for the first time, and I m already up to more than 2k views. In the first week. Without actually digging into the content I want to write about, yet.I don t mean to say that to brag, I m just telling you for a fact that I m not ranting into thin air. I m not even ranting at all. In fact, every single one of my posts has been written either calmly or with happiness, including this one.My entire point is this: debate me on the merits of the subject, not on me as a person. If you don t like me, that s okay. Go play elsewhere.But, I m still going to keep writing. Next week, different metaphors.We re bootstrapped now.

First off, my members-only post is much happier. Members-only posts continue until open source Medium becomes available. Don t worry, if you write to me privately, I can give you a copy on request.Here are a few donuts for everyone:https://medium.com/media/48d02097292c207c14cfa0203f840bc2/hrefhttps://medium.com/media/092204ce4dd42849ab42c7dae9172c8a/hrefhttps://medium.com/media/28bd9e3206e39011fab17e7d7159c374/hrefGood.

Don t knock the fence down before you know why it s up. I repeat this phrase over and over again, yet the (metaphorical) Homeowner s Association still decides my fence is the wrong color.Well, now you get to know why the fence is up. If anyone s actually willing to challenge me on this level, I d welcome it.The four ideas I d like to discuss are this: quantum physics, Lutheranism, mental resilience, and psychology. I ve been studying these topics intensely for the past decade as a passion project. I m just going to let my thoughts flow, but I d like to hear other opinions on this.Can the mysteries of the mind, the subatomic world, and faith converge to reveal deeper truths?When it comes to self-taught knowledge on analysis, I m mostly learned on Freud, with some hints of Jung and Peterson. I ve read much of the original source material, and watched countless presentations on it. This all being said, I m both learned on Rothbard and Marx, so if there is a major flaw in the way of Freud is frowned upon, I d genuinely like to know so I can update my research and juxtapose the two schools of thought.Alongside this, although probably not directly relevant, I m learned on John Locke and transcendentalism. What I d like to focus on here is this the Id.The Id is the pleasure-seeking, instinctual part of the psyche. Jung further extends this into the idea of the shadow self, and Peterson maps the meanings of these texts into a combined work (at least in my rudimentary understanding).In my research, the Id represents the part of your psyche that deals with religious values. As an example, if you re an impulsive person, turning to a spiritual or religious outlet can be highly beneficial. I ve been using references from the foundational text of the Judaeo-Christian value system this entire time, feel free to re-read my other blog posts (instead of claiming they don t exist).Let s tie this into quantum physics. This is the part where I ll struggle most. I ve watched several movies about this, read several books, and even learned about it academically, but quantum physics is likely to be my weak spot here.I did some research, and here are the elements I m looking for: uncertainty principle, wave-particle duality, quantum entanglement, and the observer effect.I already know about the cat in the box. And the Cat in the Hat, for that matter. I know about wave-particle duality from an incredibly intelligent high school physics teacher of mine. I know about the uncertainty principle purely in a colloquial sense. The remaining element I need to wrap my head around is quantum entanglement, but it feels like I m almost there.These concepts do actually challenge the idea of pure free will. It s almost like we re coming full circle. Some theologians (including myself, if you can call me a self-taught one) do believe the idea of quantum indeterminacy can be a space where divine action may take place. You could also liken the unpredictable nature of the Id to quantum indeterminacy as well. These are ones to think about, because in all reality, they re subjective opinions. I do believe they re interconnected.In terms of Lutheranism, I ll be short on this one. Please do go read the full history behind Martin Luther and his turbulent relationship with Catholicism. I m not a Bible thumper, and I actually think this is the first time I ve mentioned religion publicly at all. This being said, now I m actually ready to defend the points on an academic level.The Id represents hidden psychological forces, quantum physics reveals subatomic mysteries, and Lutheranism emphasizes faith in the unseen God. Okay, so we have the baseline. Now, time for some mental resilience. When I think of mental resilience, the first people I think of are David Goggins and Jocko Willink. I ve also enjoyed Dr. Andrew Huberman s podcast.The idea there is simple if you understand exactly how to learn, you know your fundamentals well enough to draw them and explain them vividly on a whiteboard, and you can make it a habit, at that point you re ready to work on your mental resilience. Little by little, gradually, how far can you push the bar towards the ceiling?There s obviously limits. People sometimes get scared when I mention mental resilience, but obviously that s a bit of a catch 22. There are plenty of satirical videos out there, and of course, I don t believe in Goggins or Jocko wholeheartedly. They re just tools in the toolbox when times get tough.I wish you all well, and I hope this gets you thinking about those people who just insist there is no God or higher being, and think you re stupid for believing there is one. Those people obviously haven t read analysis, in my own opinion.Have a great night!

Edit: for the people calling this unhinged, you don t have the full context. I know it s not a good look. Just stop and think for a second, though.I d like to start this post by saying that I am indeed well. I ve thought so from the very beginning, and it s been confirmed by professionals as such. That being said, there is still this perception that people are still believing the other person that needs help.See, when you re deeply involved in this space for ten years and start a blog to share all the cool things you ve learned, you don t expect people to spread the rumor that you re crazy. And you especially don t expect them to resort to a legal bluff and then brag about it in a private IRC channel (yes, I have the proof.)I d like my apology letter, please. And I d like you all to stop using Orwellian tactics to silence me by spreading those rumors, please. I know the source of the rumor-mill, and it s being dealt with. There has been progress, but one thing hasn t happened yet I haven t received my apology letter. I ll even volunteer, out of my own good spirit, to remove this post and all BwE parts of my first post if you send me a full apology letter in the next 24 hours. I d do that, just to get you to open your eyes and smile.Silencing people, or asking them to remove parts of a post you don t like, is never okay. You could choose whether to publish it on your platform, sure, but you certainly don t get to pick and choose what I put in my personal blog posts.I am a United States citizen with a 1st amendment right that shall be respected. I ve also studied and enjoyed writing for years. I m sick and tired of the back and forth on this. I ve wanted to move on and you are actively not letting me.I have the full IRC logs. Several other people have attested they also have them. What would you like to do next?I m not sure about you, but I m sitting here eating a donut. This isn t harrassment, this is self defense. At some point, you have to get sick and tired of issues happening, and you have to stand up for yourself, on your own footing.It isn t easy. I probably won t look back favorably on this post and thought process in a few years. That being said, it s necessary to defend myself on someone who has mistreated me personally on so many grave levels. You ll note I still haven t made the name public.They want to make you out to look like a loose cannon. They want to push your buttons and make you write a rant blog post telling you how much they hate them. I m not going to dignify that, because I know a specific electrician who wouldn t be happy if I had to write him a dissent.I m done. Don t defame me anymore.With donuts,
Simon

A popular topic of public conversation in 2025 is balance. How do we balance budgets, how do we balance entities, and how do we balance perspectives? How do we balance the right of free expression with our ability to effectively convey a message?Here s another popular topic of conversation AI. What is it? What does it do?I m going to give you some resources, as someone who first learned the inner workings of AI about ten years ago.I ll start with the presentation I gave in middle school. Our objective was to give a presentation on a topic of our choice, and we would be graded on our ability to give a presentation. Instead of talking about specific things or events, I talked about the broader idea of fully establishing an artificial form of intelligence.This is the video I used as a basis for that presentation:https://medium.com/media/21d2427a502b7c7cb669220e2e3478c8/hrefNot only did I explain exactly how this specific video game worked, it helped me understand machine learning and genetic algorithms. If I m recalling correctly, the actual title of my presentation had to do with genetic algorithms specifically.In the presentation, I specifically tied in Darwin s readings on evolution (of course, I had to keep it secular ), directly relating the information I learned about evolution in science class into a presentation about what would become AI. But Simon, the title of that video says Machine Learning. Do you have your glasses on?!? Yes, yes I do. It took me a few years to watch this space evolve, as I focused on other portions of the open source world. This changed when I attended SCaLE 21x. At that conference, the product manager for AI at Canonical (apologies if I m misquoting your exact title) gave a presentation on how she sees this space evolving. It s a must watch, in my opinion:https://medium.com/media/a13b2e46fc8acaa3bebf01a7f7bdeebb/hrefThis comprehensive presentation really covers the entire space, and does an excellent job at giving the whole picture.The short of it is this calling everything AI is inaccurate. Using AI for everything under the sun also isn t accurate. Speaking of the sun, it will get us if we don t find a sustainable way to get all that energy we ll need.I also read a paper on this issue, which I believe ties it together nicely. Published in June 2024, it s titled Situational Awareness The Decade Ahead and does an excellent job in predicting how this space will evolve. So far, it s been very accurate.The reason I m explaining this is fairly simple. In 2025, I still don t think many people have taken the time to dig into the content. From many conversations I ve heard, including one I took notes on in an entirely personal capacity, I m finding that not many people have a decent idea for where this space is going.It s been researched! :)If someone can provide a dissent for this view of the artificial intelligence space in the comments, I d be more than happy to hear it. Here s where I think this connects to the average person Many of the open source companies right now, without naming names, are focusing too much on the corporate benefits of AI. Yes, AI will be an incredibly useful tool for large organizations, and it will have a great benefit for how we conduct business over the course of the next decade. But do we have enough balance?Before you go all-in on AI, just do your research, please. Take a look at your options, and choose one that is correctly calibrated with the space as you see it.Lastly, when I talk about AI, I always bring up Orwell. I m a very firm, strong believer in free speech. AI must not be used to censor content, and the people who design your AI stack are very important. Look at which one of the options, as a company, enforces a diversity policy that is consistent with your values. The values of that company will carry over into its product. If you think I m wrong about this point, seriously, go read 1984 by George Orwell a few times over. You ll get the picture on what we re looking to avoid.In short, there s no need to over-complicate AI to those who don t understand it. Use the video game example. It s simple, and it works. Try using that same sentiment in your messaging, too. Appealing to both companies and individual users, together, should be important for open source companies, especially those with a large user base.I wish you all well. If you re getting to the end of this post and you re mad at me, sorry about that. Go re-read 1984 just one more time, please. ;)

In my home state of Wisconsin, there is an incredibly popular gas station called Kwik Trip. (Not to be confused with Quik Trip.) It is legitimately one of the best gas stations I ve ever been to, and I m a frequent customer.What makes it that great?Well, everything about it. The store is clean, the lights work, the staff are always friendly (and encourage you to come back next time), there s usually bakery on sale (just depends on location etc), and the list goes on.There s even a light-switch in the bathroom of a large amount of locations that you can flip if a janitor needs to attend to things. It actually does set off an alarm in the back room.A dear friend of mine from Wisconsin once told me something along the lines of, it s inaccurate to call Kwik Trip a gas station, because in all reality, it s a five star restaurant. (M , I hope you re well.)In my own opinion, they have an espresso machine. That s what really matters. ;)I mentioned the discount bakery. In reality, it s a pretty great system. To my limited understanding, the bakery that is older than standard but younger than expiry are set to half price and put towards the front of the store. In my personal experience, the vast majority of the time, the quality is still amazing. In fact, even if it isn t, the people working at Kwik Trip seem to genuinely enjoy their job.When you re looking at that discount rack of bakery, what do you choose? A personal favorite of mine is the banana nut bread with frosting on top. (To the non-Americans, yes, it does taste like it s homemade, it doesn t taste like something made in a factory.)Everyone chooses different bakery items. And honestly, there could be different discount items out depending on the time. You take what you can get, but you still have your own preferences. You like a specific type of donut (custard-filled, or maybe jelly-filled). Frosting, sprinkles there are so many ways to make different bakery items.It s not only art, it s kind of a science too.Is there a Kwik Trip that you ve called a gas station instead of a five star restaurant? Do you also want to tell people about your gas station? Do you only pick certain bakery items off the discount rack, or maybe ignore it completely? (And yes, there would be good reason to ignore the bakery in favor of the Hot Spot, I d consider that acceptable in my personal opinion.)Remember, sometimes you just have to like donuts.https://medium.com/media/73f78efd7bd6bb9ce495c2f08428c7d3/hrefHave a sweet day. :)

This morning, I went to make my usual cup of coffee. I was given an espresso machine for Christmas, and I ve developed this technique for making a warm drink that hits the spot every time.I ll start by turning on my espresso machine and starting a single shot of espresso. It dispenses and drips while I m working on the other parts.I then grab a coffee cup. Usually one of the taller ones. For maybe the bottom inch or two of the cup, that gets sugar and chocolate milk. Microwave for 45 seconds, pour in the espresso, then wash out the actual espresso from the metal cup with milk. Pour all of that in, another 45 seconds in the microwave, a few quick stirs, and you re all set.To the actual baristas out there, that probably sounds horrible. It probably sounds like the worst possible recommendation for a morning coffee ever.But, you know what? It works.So, I went to put my coffee into the microwave today, and I realized that someone else had put the glass plate for the microwave into the sink after accidentally spilling their breakfast on it.Instead of saying, well, I m not going to have my coffee this morning, I grabbed a large plate. I remembered the physics of levers from high school, and I understood that if I balanced everything just right, it would heat my coffee up.And well, here I am. With an un-spilled coffee and a story to tell.My point here is actually pretty simple, and this is before I even read any messages for the day. People with much more formal educations sometimes look at the guy engineering coffee with his microwave and think, what is this guy doing?!? All I m doing is making a really good cup of coffee. And to be honest, it tastes amazing.That s all. Have a wonderful day.

Toolboxes and Hammers Be YouEveryone has a story. We all started from somewhere, and we re all going somewhere.Ten years ago this summer, I first heard of Ubuntu. It took me time to learn how to properly pronounce the word, although I m glad I learned that early on. I was less fortunate when it came to the pronunciation of the acronym for the Ubuntu Code of Conduct. I had spent time and time again breaking my computer, and I d wanted to start fresh.I ve actually talked about this in an interview before, which you can find here (skip to 5:02 6:12 for my short explanation, I m in orange):https://medium.com/media/ad59becdbd06d230b875fb1512df1921/hrefI ve also done a few interviews over the years, here are some of the more recent ones:https://medium.com/media/83bda448d5f2a979f848e17f04376aa6/hrefAsk Noah Show 377Lastly, I did a few talks at SCaLE 21x (which the Ubuntu community donation funds helped me attend, thank you for that!):https://medium.com/media/0fbde7ef0ed83c2272a8653a5ea38b67/hrefhttps://medium.com/media/4d18f1770dc7eed6c7a9d711ff6a6e89/hrefMy story is fairly simple to summarize, if you don t have the time to go through all the clips.I started in the Ubuntu project at 13 years old, as a middle school student living in Green Bay, WI. I m now 23 years old, still living in Green Bay, but I became an Ubuntu Core Developer, Lubuntu s Release Manager, and worked up to a very great and comfortable spot.So, Simon, what advice would you give to someone at 13 who wants to do the same thing? Here are a few tips * Don t be afraid to be yourself. If you put on a mask, it hinders your growth, and you ll end up paying for it later anyway.
* Find a mentor. Someone who is okay working with someone your age, and ideally someone who works well with people your age (quick shoutout to Aaron Prisk and Walter Lapchynski for always being awesome to me and other folks starting out at high school.) This is probably the most important part.
* Ask questions. Tons of them. Ask questions until you re blue in the face. Ask questions until you get a headache so bad that your weekend needs to come early. Okay, maybe don t go that far, but at the very least, always stay curious.
* Own up to your mistakes. Even the most experienced people you know have made tons of mistakes. It s not about the mistake itself, it s about how you handle it and grow as a person.Now, after ten years, I ve seen many people come and go in Ubuntu. I was around for the transition from upstart to systemd. I was around for the transition from Unity to GNOME. I watched Kubuntu as a flavor recover from the arguments only a few years before I first started, only to jump in and help years later when the project started to trend downwards again.I have deep love, respect, and admiration for Ubuntu and its community. I also have deep love, respect, and admiration for Canonical as a company. It s all valuable work. That being said, I need to recognize where my own limits are, and it s not what you d think. This isn t some big burnout rant.Some of you may have heard rumors about an argument between me and the Ubuntu Community Council. I refuse to go into the private details of that, but what I ll tell you is this in retrospect, it was in good faith. The entire thing, from both my end and theirs, was to try to either help me as a person, or the entire community. If you think any part of this was bad faith from either side, you re fooling yourself. Plus, tons of great work and stories actually came out of this.The Ubuntu Community Council really does care. And so does Mark Shuttleworth.Now, I won t go into many specifics. If you want specifics, I d direct you to the Ubuntu Community Council who would be more than happy to answer any questions (actually they d probably stay silent. Nevermind.) That being said, I can t really talk about any of this without mentioning how great Mark has become.Remember, I was around for a few different major changes within the project. I ve heard and seen stories about Mark that actually match what Reddit says about him. But in 2025, out of the bottom of my heart, I m here to tell you that you re all wrong now.See, Mark didn t just side with somebody and be done with it. He actually listened, and I could tell, he cares very very deeply. I really enjoyed reading ogra s recent blog post, you should seriously check it out. Of course, I m only 23 years old, but I have to say, my experiences with Mark match that too.Now, as for what happens from here. I m taking a year off from Ubuntu. I talked this over with a wide variety of people, and I think it s the right decision. People who know me personally know that I m not one to make a major decision like this without a very good reason to. Well, I d like to share my reasons with you, because I think they d help.People who contribute time to open source find it to be very rewarding. Sometimes so rewarding, in fact, that no matter how many economics and finance books they read, they still haven t figured out how to balance that with a job that pays money. I m sure everyone deeply involved in this space has had the urge to quit their job at least once or twice to pursue their passions.Here s the other element too I ve had a handful of romantic relationships before, and they ve never really panned out. I found the woman that I truly believe I m going to marry. Is it going to be a rough road ahead of us? Absolutely, and to be totally honest, there is still a (small, at this point) chance it doesn t work out.That being said I remain optimistic. I m not taking a year off because I m in some kind of trouble. I haven t burned any bridge here except for one.You know who you are. You need help. I d be happy to reconnect with you once you realize that it s not okay to do what you did. An apology letter is all I want. I don t want Mutually Assured Destruction, I don t want to sit and battle on this for years on end. Seriously dude, just back off. Please.I hate having to take out the large hammer. But sometimes, you just have to do it. I ve quite enjoyed Louis Rossmann s (very not-safe-for-work) videos on BwE.https://medium.com/media/ab64411c41e65317f271058f56bb2aba/hrefI genuinely enjoy being nice to people. I want to see everyone be successful and happy, in that order (but with both being very important). I m not perfect, I m a 23-year-old who just happened to stumble into this space at the right time.To this specific person only, I tell you, please, let me go take my year off in peace. I don t wish you harm, and I won t make anything public, including your name, if you just back off.Whew. Okay. Time to be happy again.Again, I want to see people succeed. That goes for anyone in Ubuntu, Lubuntu, Kubuntu, Canonical, you name it. I m going to remain detached from Ubuntu for at least a year. If circumstances change, or if I feel the timing just isn t right, I ll wait longer. My point is, I ll be back, the when of it will just never be public before it happens.In the meantime, you re welcome to reach out to me. It ll take me some time to bootstrap things, more than I originally thought, but I m hoping it ll be quick. After all, I ve had practice.I m also going to continue writing. About what? I don t know yet.But, I ll just keep writing. I want to share all of the useful tips I ve learned over the years. If you actually liked this post, or if you ve enjoyed my work in the Ubuntu project, please do subscribe to my personal blog, which will be here on Medium (unless someone can give me an open source alternative with a funding model). This being said, while I d absolutely take any donations people would like to provide, at the end of the day, I don t do this for the money. I do this for the people just like me, out of love.So you, just like me, can make your dreams happen.Don t give up, it ll come. Just be patient with yourself.As for me, I have business to attend to. What business is that, exactly? Read Walden, and you ll find out.I wish you all well, even the person I called out. I sincerely hope you find what you re looking for in life. It takes time. Sometimes you have to listen to some music to pass the time, so I created a conceptual mixtape if you want to listen to some of the same music as me.I ll do another blog post soon, don t worry.Be well. Much, much more to come.

The Linux community is a fascinating and powerful space.When I joined the Ubuntu project approximately five years ago, I (vaguely at the time) understood that there was a profound sense of community and passion everywhere that is difficult to find in other spaces. My involvement has increased, and so has my understanding. I had thought of starting a blog as a means of conveying the information that I stumbled across, but my writing skills were very crude and regrettable, being in my early teenage years.I have finally decided to take the leap. In this blog, I would like to occasionally provide updates on my work, either through focused deep dives on a particular topic, or broad updates on low hanging fruit that has been eliminated. While the articles may be somewhat spontaneous, I decided that an initial post was in order to explain my goals. Feel free to subscribe for more detailed posts in the future, as there are many more to come.