Rhonda D'Vine: Ich bin was ich bin
As my readers probably are well aware, I wrote my transgender coming out poem Mermaidsover 10 years ago, to make it clear to people how I define, what I am and how I would hope they could accept me. I did put it publicly into my blog so I could point people to it. And I still do so regularly. It still comes from the bottom of my heart. And I am very happy that I got the chance to present it in a Poetry Slam last year, it was even recorded and uploaded to YouTube. There is just one thing that I was also told over the time every now and then by some people that I would have liked to understand what's going on:
Why is it in English, my English isn't that good.My usual response was along the lines of that the events that triggered me writing it were in an international context and I wanted to make sure that they understood what I wrote. At that time I didn't realize that I am cutting out a different group of people from being able to understand what's going on inside me. So this year there was a similar event: the Flawless Poetry Slam which touched the topics of
Feminist? Queer? Gender? Rolemodels? - Let's talk about it.I took that as motivation to finally write another text on the topic, and this time in German. Unfortunately though I wasn't able to present it that evening, I wasn't drawn for the lineup. But, I was told that there was another slam going on just last wednesday, so I went there ... and made it onto the stage! And this is the text that I presented there. I am uncertain how well online translators work for you, but I hope you get the core points if you don't understand German:
Ich bin was ich binHope you get the idea. The audience definitely liked it, the jury wasn't so much on board but that's fine, it's five random people and it's mostly for fun anyway. Later that night though some things happened that didn't make me feel so comfortable anymore. I went to the loo, waiting in line with the other ladies, a bit later the waitress came along telling me "the men's room is over there". I told her that I'm aware of that and thanked her, which got her confused and said something along the lines of "so you are both, or what?" but went away after that. Her tone and response wasn't really giving me much comfort, though none of the other ladies in the line did look strangely.
F nf Worte mit wahrem Sinn:
Ich bin was ich bin Du denkst: "Mann im Rock?
Das ist ja wohl l cherlich,
der ist sicher schwul." "Fingernagellack?
Na da schau ich nicht mehr hin,
wer will das schon seh'n." Jedoch liegst du falsch,
Mit all deinen Punkten, denn:
Ich bin was ich bin. Ich bin Transgender
Und erlebe mich selber,
ich bin eine Frau. "Haha, eine Frau?
Wem willst du das weismachen?
Heb mal den Rock hoch!" Und wie ist's bei dir?
Was ist zwischen den Beinen?
Geht mich das nichts an? Warum fragst du mich?
Da ist's dann in Ordnung?
Oder vielleicht nicht? Ich bin was ich bin
F nf Worte mit ernstem Sinn:
Ich bin was ich bin Ich steh weiblich hier
Und das hier ist mein K rper
Mein Geschlecht ist's auch Oberfl chlichkeit
Das ist mein gr tes Problem
Schl gt mir entgegen Wenn ich mich ffne
Verst ndnis fast berall
Es wird akzeptiert Doch gelegentlich
und das schmerzt mich am meisten
sagt doch mal wer "er" Von Fremden? Egal
Doch hab ich mich ge ffnet
Ist es eine Qual "Ich seh dich als Mann"
Da ist, was es transportiert
Akzeptanz? Dahin Meine Pronomen
Wenn ihr ber mich redet
sind sie, ihr, ihres Ich leb was ich leb
F nf Worte mit tiefem Sinn:
Ich bin was ich bin "Doch, wie der erst spricht!
Ich meinte, wie sie denn spricht!
Das ist nicht normal." Ich schreib hier Haikus:
Japanische Gedichtsform
Mit fixem Versmars Sind f nf, sieben, f nf
Silben in jeder Zeile
Haikus sind simpel Probier es mal aus
Transportier eine Message
Es macht auch viel Spa Wortwahl ist wichtig
Ein guter Thesaurus hilft
Sei kurz und pr gnant Ich sag was ich sag
F nf Worte mit klugem Sinn:
Ich bin was ich bin Doch ich schweife ab
Verst ndnis fast berall?
Wird es akzeptiert? Erstaunlicherweise
Doch ich bin auch was and'res
Und hier geht's bergab Eine Sache gibt's
Die erw h'n ich besser nicht
f r die steck ich ein "Deshalb bin ich hier"
So der Titel eines Lieds
verfasst von Thomas D "Wenn ich erkl re
warum ich mich wie ern hr"
So weit komm ich nicht Man erw hnt Vegan
Die Intoleranz ist da
Man ist unten durch "Mangelerscheinung!"
"Das Essen meines Essens!"
Akzeptanz ade Hab 'ne Theorie:
Vegan sein: 'ne Entscheidung
Transgender sein nicht Mensch f hlt sich dann schlecht
dass bei sich selbst die Kraft fehlt
und greift damit an "Ich k nnte das nicht"
Ich verurteile dich nicht
Iss doch was du willst Ich zwing es nicht auf
Aber R cksicht w r schon fein
Statt nur Hohn und Schm h Ich ess was ich ess
F nf Worte zum nachdenken:
Ich bin was ich bin
But the most disturbing event after that was to find out about North Carolina signed the bathroom bill making it illegal for trans people to use the bathroom for their gender and insisting on using the one for the gender they were assigned at birth. So men like James Sheffield are now forced to go to the lady's restroom, or face getting arrested. Brave new world. :/ So, enjoy the text and don't get too wound up by stupid laws and hope for time to fix people's discriminatory minds for fixing issues that already are regulated: Assaults are assaults and are already banned. Arguing with people might get assaulted and thus discriminating trans people is totally missing the point, by miles.
In January and February of 2016 I ran an Obnam user survey. I'm not a
statistician, but here is my analysis of the results.
Executive summary: Obnam is slow, buggy, and the name is bad. But
they'd like to buy stickers and t-shirts.
Method
I wrote up a long list of questions about things I felt were of
interest to me. I used Google Forms to collect responses, and exported
them as a CSV file, and analysed based on that.
I used Google Forms, even though it is not free software, as it was
the easiest service I got to work that also seemed it'd be nice for
people to use. I could have run the survey using
Propellor was recently ported to FreeBSD, by Evan Cofsky. This new feature
led me down a two week long rabbit hole to make it type safe. In particular,
Propellor needed to be taught that some properties work on Debian, others on
FreeBSD, and others on both.
The user shouldn't need to worry about making a mistake like this;
the type checker should tell them they're asking for something that can't
fly.
What happened in the
One common testing anti-pattern is a single testcase that loops over multiple yet independent inputs:
The fourth update in the 0.12.* series of
[I wrote this as part of
There was a connection I meant to draw, and then forgot to do before
publishing my last entry.
In severe cases of
depression,
I am very very (very very very!) happy to confirm that...
This year, and after many years of not being able to, I will cross the Atlantic. To do this, I will take my favorite excuse: Attending DebConf!
So, yes, this image I am pasting here is as far as you can imagine from official promotional material. But, having bought my plane tickets, I have to start bragging about it ;-)
In case it is of use to others (at least, to people from my general geographic roundabouts), I searched for plane tickets straight from Mexico. I was accepting my lack of luck, facing an over-36-hour trip(!!) and at very high prices. Most routes were Mexico- central_europe -Arab Emirates-South Africa... Great for collecting frequent-flier miles, but terrible for anything else. Of course, requesting a more logical route (say, via Sao Paulo in Brazil) resulted in a price hike to over US$3500. Not good.
I found out that Mexico-Argentina tickets for that season were quite agreeable at US$800, so I booked our family vacation to visit the relatives, and will fly from there at US$1400. So, yes, in a 48-hr timespan I will do MEX-GRU-ROS, then (by land) Rosario to Buenos Aires, then AEP-GRU-JNB-CPT. But while I am at DebConf, Regina and the kids will be at home with the grandparents and family and friends. In the end, win-win with just an extra bit of jetlag for me ;-)
I *really* expect flights to be saner for USians, Europeans, and those coming from further far away. But we have grown to have many Latin Americans, and I hope we can all meet in CPT for the most intense weeks of the year!
See you all in South Africa!

More sandboxing
When working on untrusted code or data it's impossible to predict what
happens when one does a:
For quite some time I maintain 


This is a screenshot of the IPMI console, so it's not showing the full information of that kernel oops, but as you can see, there are most likely such parts involved like bridge, netif, xenvif and the physical igb NIC.
Here's another screenshot of a crash from this night:
Slightly different information, but still somehow network involved as you can see in the first line (net_rx_action).
So the big question is: is this a bug Xen or with my setup? I'm using xl toolstack, the xl.conf is basically the default, I think: